Текст песни Cry Of Fear — Ending 4

I stopped myself from doing it, from committing suicide. But it didn't only leave me alive, it also left two police officers dead. I killed them, shot them both. This was not supposed to happen. Doctors testfied that I was having a psychosis, which means that my punishment won't be too hard for me to bear.
I have to spend the rest of my life on a mental hospital, where nurses and doctors are taking care of me. They let me finish my book, and it has helped me a lot. I wrote a happy ending, just for myself. I feel better now. I am more at peace with myself, even though I'm still stuck in this wheelchair, but I accept that now. I can never forgive myself for shooting those two officers though, but I have so many supportive people around me now, so I think I will be ok. Doctor Purnell is mentoring me and is watching my progress. I am lucky to have him. Sophie visits me every once in a while, when the doctors let her that is. They still think her visits are too *destabilizing* for me and that it hinders my progress. I keep on telling her how sorry I am for making her life miserable every time she's here. She then just laughs a bit and tells me to stop being so silly, but I can see the damage I've done to her in her eyes every time she looks at me. She found a new friend, one who is there for her and treats her right. I'm happy for her, though I'll miss the good moments we've had, knowing that they'll never come back.
I think this is a good time to close this book. It has changed my life forever.
The end.